Who told you it was dirty? Who told you it was wrong?
Are they in there with you? In your mind, at your most vulnerable.
Turn their voices off. They do not belong there. You and you alone belong in your mind during these intimate moments.
What is dirty talk? Is it telling your lover what you want and how you want it? Or is it the moans, groans, any vocals expressed in the midst of your pleasure?
Learning to be comfortable with yourself and your lover needs time. Discovering what you both like requires attention. Give yourself permission to disregard that which others have instilled in you as being dirty…wrong.
Give yourself a break and teach yourself what’s right for you.